I just read a blog that stated that what was in a woman's purse, cabinets and bedside table reveal who she is. This made me start thinking about what I have in these places.
My purse: Right now it is a jumbled mess in which I can barely find anything and have almost everything! There is no organization at all.
My cabinets: (Kitchen) I actually don't use the cabinets because they are nasty, but my pantry is once again a mess. There are a few spices, condiments, 1 pkg of hot chocolate, popcorn, dishes, appliances, a vacuum, etc. What is not in my kitchen pantry is the makings for even one complete meal. There is also no rhyme or reason to it...unfortunately, this applies to my bathroom cabinets, my drawers, etc.
My bedside table: Actually on the surface this is pretty clean (minus the inch of dust that currently resides there). There is a water bottle, a book, my "sisters" Willow Tree Angel, a lamp and my phone when I am home. But there is a drawer and that is essentially a junk drawer full of, well, a little bit of everything.
When I think about this I realize that my work desk (drawer, not top) is completely disorganized, my car may as well be a trash pit because there is literally only room for me, and so on...Every area of my life is basically the same way. I have no organization in my life, despite the fact I constantly strive for this. It explains why I rarely get the things I need/want to accomplish completed. I am someone who dreams of being an "all-together" person, who envies the women that are, yet I can never seem to be this person.
And this is basically the portrait of who I am (you know, the real me)...at first glance I may seem to be doing okay, but once you really get to know me you realize there is a woman seeking, scared, completely unsure and disorganized - in a nutshell I'm a mess!
So I've decided that I want, actually I need, to start cleaning house, both literally and figuratively. I want to be able to live life fully and completely. I want to find peace and solace. I want to not feel so disorganized and out of control of my own life.
But I also don't want to become too picky, too anal, too much of anything. I like that I don't have to always be in control, because lets be honest, in the real world there is no way we can always be in control. I like that I don't sacrifice time with people I love to clean my pantry, or grocery shop for that matter :D
And this reveals the most basic of my life goals...to find balance so that I can be successful without risking my own happiness...hmmm...that should be easy enough, right?
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