Hands down the worst year of my life, and for most in my immediate family was 2005(although some good did happen that year like my sister getting married to the love of her life). During that year, we lost several people in our family and and on a personal level I went through a devastating personal crisis, virtually by myself. It took years to recover from the tragicness (not sure if that's a word) of that year, and we all remain scarred and bruised from the losses, although we have been blessed in the years that followed. I think we had all finally felt like we could breathe again, and not worry that it was bad news everytime the phone rang.
Now it seems we are getting ready to enter another difficult period, with many different and difficult situations going on in my family. None of them are something I can, or would, discuss online, but suffice it to say, it is not going to be an easy road for my family! After several heartbroken phone calls from different ones in my family over the past couple weeks I feel like once again I jump everytime the phone rings until I know it's not bad news. It's so hard too, because many of the situations don't affect me directly, yet my heart breaks for the ones it does affect on a deeper more personal level. And I am a "fixer", always wanting to find a way to "fix" the situation, even when there is nothing I can do...I just hate to feel helpless in situations affecting my loved ones.
But experience has taught us that time, prayer, and love of family and friends can bring us together, make us stronger and help us get through anything!
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