Call Me Crazy....

But Fridays always feel a little bit like the night before Christmas to me!!!I LOVE weekends when Jason is off and we have plans (even if they consist of a car show...hahaha!) I think the next weekend he has off, I will convince him that we NEED to go to the beach to maintain my sanity!

Perfection Eludes Me, Happiness Does Not!

I have always been a wannabe Type A Personality. I want to have it all together. I want to strive for perfection. I want to dream and then work my butt off to accomplish those dreams. But alas, test after test has told me what I already knew, and that is that I am a solid "B" personality. Believe it or not "Type B" is the middle of the road, pretty great place to be personality, even if the Type A's are the only ones that seem to get noticed! Most days I beat myself up that I am not more accomplished and perfect. Then I beat myself up for being a "wannabe". I think I want today to be the day I stop wanting to be something I am not. I will stop wanting to be perfect, and focus a little more on being happy! Here are a few things I know that I love about my "B" personality... I love that I can let the chores go to play with my little boy or cuddle on the couch with my honey. I love that I am able to take a trip, even if the house is a mess, and forget about that mess while I am gone. I love that my job is just my job, not where I gain my sense of self. I love that I am learning to accept that even if I could cook a fancy dinner every night, I do not want to cook a fancy dinner, so I won't. I am even beginning to love that I am not a perfect parent, because my son needs to know that people will make mistakes and know what it takes to learn/grow/rectify them. I am never going to be perfect (don't tell anyone, but neither is ANYONE else on this earth). I think it is time to find a certain peace and fun in my imperfections. And, when I cannot find any good from my lack of ambition towards the pinnacle of perfection, I will simply remind myself that some of the unhappiest people I know are the "Type A's". So while I will watch and admire them, often dreaming I could be (so well-dressed, put together, organized, accomplished in my job, crafty, etc.), at the end of the day, when I lay down to sleep in my cluttered, messy room, I will try more often to acknowledge that being who I am, where I am in my life right now is a pretty happy place to "B"e! (If you have never taken a personality test, you may be really confused by this post and should CHOOSE to ignore it!)