The Bible should come with this title as a warning label. The closer you get to God, the more vocal you become about loving Him, trusting Him, seeking Him and following Him, the more you will be tested. I hate being tested, because I often fail. Most of the time, I get up, dust off my tattered pride, learn and move on. This is not always a rapid process.
Yesterday, I wss hurt by others. I was angry. Rather than leaning on the Lord, I vented my anger to an aquaintance, who ended up causing me to feel stupid, worthless and more alone. I failed the test. I should have leaned on God to "fix" the situation, and to heal my heart. Today I remember that my God is faithful, that He is present when others hurt me, and that He loves me for who I am, shortcomings and all. Today, I ask His forgiveness, and ask Him to help me truly be more like Him. This is always hard when you are still hurting from a situation, but then I am forced to recognize that growth only truly comes through the trials.
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