Unimaginable

I have done the unimaginable. I have deactivated my Facebook account. I am an addict and will most definitely go through detox of some sort from this. Why have I done it? I have three big reasons...

1. I compare my life to everyone else's. My self esteem is at an all-time low, thanks to this. Instead of living in my moment in life, I am comparing it to someone else's. I have been so bitter that I haven't been able to go on vacation lately. Don't get me wrong, I will still be upset, but at least everyone's beach pics won't be steaming across my phone screen every five minutes. I also won't have to feel guilty about having a bad day, because someone else's day was worse. Comparison is an ugly thing for me, and step one to curbing this is not be on FB.

2. I am addicted, as mentioned earlier. I do not like something having this much of a hold over me. I freak if my phone can't link to FB. I get so involved in peoples lives that I haven't seen in years!!!! I find myself looking up people I barely know to get a hint of what their lives are like, you know so I can compare mine to theirs.

3. This is the most important one...it is keeping me from being present and involved in the most vital, important relationships in my life. My relationship with God, my husband and my son. I look at FB if I am having a panic attack in the middle of the night, instead of praying or reading my Bible. I miss entire conversations with Jason, because I am reading what is on FB. I have literally seen rejection in my son's eyes when I am too busy looking at my phone to play with him. I also deleted my games for this reason. I need to stop missing out on all that God has given me, before it is too late.

It is time to be all in, in MY life for awhile. So from now until August 31st, I am done. That's enough time to break a habit (3 weeks), and then I will reassess this. My ultimate goal right now, is a year, but for now I will start with 3 weeks :)