Holy Cow!!!

I cannot believe it has been four months since my last post! Life has been a whirlwind and I do not even know where to start. I could tell you how the doctor took me out of work a month early, and then had me deliver a month early via c-section, how there is no way to define the love that I felt when I "met" my beautiful son, Lane, how I have spent way too much time taking pics and cuddling to accomplish much else, how crazy it is to be as busy as I am, how some days I thought I was losing my mind from lack of sleep, how post-pregnancy hormones are MUCH worse than pregnancy hormones, or many other crazy details, but I won't! What I will say is that there is no feeling like being a mom! I had no idea how much I would love this little boy that has been entrusted to my care. I love caring for him. I love not being carefree and living life only for me. Now I am responsible for a human life, a little person, and it is my job (along with Jason of course) to raise him to be a man of honor, courageous, strong, kind, gentle, genuine and loving. I do not fear this like I thought I would. Instead I wake up each day, watch my little boy smile like I am the center of his world, and know that I have finally found my true purpose in life! I feel like this is so cliche to write, that I should be talking about all of the hard stuff, and do not get me wrong, there has been plenty of that, but that pales in comparison to being able to have this amazing journey with Jason and Lane!!