So full

I love how much my baby is moving the past few days. He hardly sleeps (just like mommy), but every little kick, push, flip and turn makes my heart so happy! I cannot believe in 16 weeks or less my precious little Bunky will be in our arms, our home and our lives. I love him beyond reason and I have not even officially met him. My heart is so full of love for God, my husband, my baby, my family and my friends. I feel so full of life, dreams and hope for the future that Jason and I are planning as a family.

As I typed this I thought back a few years ago, to a time where I did not have strong feelings about anything. I simply did. I went through the motions. I lacked passion, vision, and the will to change. I was on auto-pilot, and I liked that. Because, I was not hurting. But in all honesty you cannot, more importantly should not, live your life "just going through the motions". We must embrace each moment, good, bad and otherwise as they come, because this is the true beauty of living. Once I learned to feel again, I realized that I would never go back to auto-pilot. Several months ago, I grieved intensely, today I rejoice the same way. And that friends, is what life is all about!