I want so badly to post the story of finding out we are pregnant, but I find myself focused on the fear that this will end badly. I have very mild symptoms, which I totally feel is just another wonderful part of God's blessing, but it scares me each day as I wonder if there is enough of the necessary hormones to sustain the little life growing inside of me. I live in a state of fear. I feel guilty for not being able to relax in the sovereignty of God's plan. I keep telling myself that my body was created for this, that morning sickness is not a definite sign that there will not be any problems, but still I worry.
Do not get me wrong, I am beyond happy to be pregnant, I am just ready to have that first ultrasound, hear the heartbeat and know that my beautiful baby is truly growing inside of me :)
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