The Excess

I was stressing out about money on the way home for lunch today (which is nothing new), but then it hit me that I was stressing out over how to spend the excess. You see, I am used to stressing about which bills I absolutely have to pay and which ones can wait until the next payday, out of necessity. But I was very taken back when I realized I was not stressing about how we were going to eat, pay bills or put gas in the cars, but how we were going to spend the extra that we will have after those things are taken care of for the next two weeks. It was such an eye-opening realization for me. I had to repent of this, because in my opinion this is the very type of sin that Jesus spoke about in the New Testament, most specifically of worshiping money. He tells us not to worry about what we will eat and wear, because He will take care of these things, so to worry about the excess is most definitely worshiping money. I repented and prayed that God would help me to use my money, my time (also my worry time, which should be minimal, if I remember that God is ALWAYS in control)and my life the way He would have me too. I know this is a lesson I will have to be taught over and over, but for now I am simply feeling slightly chastised and extremely grateful for where He has brought me from and all that He has given me.