To start...

In the last two years I have gotten FAT!!!! Now, don't get me wrong, I was not skinny when Jason and I started dating, but I was weighing in at 153 lbs (about 30 lbs overweight for my frame). A couple months ago, I topped out at 200 lbs, and now I have stayed in the 190-195 lb range. So, I am officially obese!!! My health is crap at this point! And the crazy thing is, that I am more self-confident than I can remember being in my life. I know that this is because my wonderful husband truly finds me beautiful. He tells me this all the time and shows me in a million ways that my weight honestly does not bother him AT ALL! It bothers me, but not enough to make a change. So this morning I decided I'm literally not going to try to change it. This may sound like I am giving up, giving in, or just flat out lazy, and do not get me wrong it is possible that all of these are true! But essentially, I am tired of stressing out about it. I have so many other things in my life that I want to focus on, my weight is not going to be one of my priorities. Now, I do have a ulterior motive to this thought process. I honestly believe that once I start focusing on the areas and goals in my life that I am passionate about, I will lose weight. I will be busier, happier and with my focus on things other than food, I will just lose the weight! I plan on monitoring to make sure this plan does not backfire on me, but I am hopeful :) It helps that one of my goals is to run 5 races this year, so the workouts alone should help the weight loss progress!