Sadness

When I started my blog I didn't tell anyone about it or how to find it, because it was kind of just for me. But as things happen I realized I kind of liked the idea of people reading it so I told a few of my nearest and dearest so they could read some of my most intimate thoughts, and then I quit sharing them. Mostly because I don't want to feel like I complain all the time, or whatever else they may imagine. Instead I try to keep it a mix of fun and introspective thoughts that might resonate with others. But the truth is, I write for me and if people don't want to keep reading that is fine. And so what if this is my second post for the day, because I need to let it out somewhere, and why the heck not let it out for the world to read (just kidding, but seriously I process through writing so I just have to write another one).

Today I am really sad. For very personal reasons I will not share with the whole world. I'm trying so hard not to be. I'm trying to remember all of the wonderful things in my life, and hold on to the positivity from my friends. I truly am blessed and thankful for my job, my friends, my schooling and my life. Despite all that though, I am sad and I can't shake it. It's just one of those things I have to get through, because I can't change the unchangeable, or make the impossible happen simply because I want it to. I just wish I could. I wish I could let it be and be happy. But a long time ago I realized that sometimes you just have to accept that you are sad, experience that feeling, not force happiness and eventually slowly it will come back. So I'm going to do just that and hope that it returns quickly.

P.S. This in no way negates my previous post for the day!